i am not myself these days by josh kilmer purcell

'Absolutely hilarious and heartbreaking and heartfelt.' -Armistead Maupin, author of Tales of the City

Kilmer-Purcell's cast is part freak-show, part soap-opera, but his prose is graced with such insight and wit that the laughter is revelatory, and the tears-and there are tears to be shed along this extraordinary journey-are shed for people in whom everybody will find something of themselves. The exact, unpitying detail with which Kilmer-Purcell depicts his downward spiral makes it impossible to look away, especially since it's not until the final scenes that he allows himself to succumb to sentimentality.'A glittering, bittersweet vision of an outsider who turned himself into the life and soul of the party. But there's always a dark undercurrent: before the two get serious, Kilmer-Purcell's alcohol-impaired judgment frequently puts him in dangerous situations, but things get worse when Jack starts smoking crack during sex parties and becomes addicted. Kilmer-Purcell gives much of his story a Sex and the City-ish spin, finding comedy in the contrast between his and Jack's sweet, cuddly relationship and the sexual demimonde of drag queens, hookers and masochists they count among their friends. (Not that Kilmer-Purcell wanted to actually become a woman as he explains to his mother, a drag queen is 'a celebrity trapped in a normal person's body.') He meets a cute guy, and soon he's moved into Jack's penthouse apartment which he pays for by working as a male escort. In the go-go '90s, Kilmer-Purcell spent his days as an advertising grunt and his nights hopping around Manhattan's gay clubs as 'Aquadisiac,' over seven feet tall in a wig and heels with goldfish swimming in transparent bubbles covering 'her' breasts. His story begins here-before the homemade goat milk soaps and hand-gathered honeys, before his memoir of the city mouse’s move to the country, The Bucolic Plague-in I Am Not Myself These Days, with “plenty of dishy anecdotes and moments of tragi-camp delight” (Washington Post). The New York Times bestselling, darkly funny memoir of a young New Yorker's daring dual life-advertising art director by day, glitter-dripping drag queen and nightclub beauty-pageant hopeful by night-was a smash literary debut for Josh Kilmer-Purcell, now known for his popular Planet Green television series The Fabulous Beekman Boys.

“Absolutely hilarious and heartbreaking and heartfelt.” -Armistead Maupin, author of Tales of the City Kilmer-Purcell’s cast is part freak-show, part soap-opera, but his prose is graced with such insight and wit that the laughter is revelatory, and the tears-and there are tears to be shed along this extraordinary journey-are shed for people in whom everybody will find something of themselves. “A glittering, bittersweet vision of an outsider who turned himself into the life and soul of the party.

I am not myself these days by josh kilmer purcell